Welp, burned my face off..

So...a couple of weeks ago I used a certain type of face wash that my skin did NOT like at all..I had a little (ok not very little) reaction to this wash and literally burned my face off..That night when it happened, once i put it in it was burning, I took it off and my face was bright red all over and stung so bad. So I had cold rags on my face for a few hours..I honestly thought the next morning it would be gone..Wrong-O! I woke up the next morning and my face was not only still red, but had huge burn marks all over my face..Wow did I ever look beautiful that day :) It not only looked great, but it was pretty painful. I was able to get into a dermatologist that day, thank goodness..They gave me a very lovely shot in my hip and put me on some steroids..Thankfully this did the trick and knocked out the redness and burns fairly quickly. After a few days my face was back to normal..I should have took a picture of my face at its worst, but I couldn't bare to look at myself like that so I couldn't bring myself to take the pic haha...However, my roommate Chelsey took this lovely picture of me laying on my bed that night with my cold rags..so cute :)

Roommates!!

Chelsey, Emily, and ME!
These are the 2 lovely ladies that live with me right now...They are great! Chelsey I've known for a few years, we also roomed together for almost a year when I was going to SUU. She is so much fun and one of my very good friends :) She's working on her bachelor in accounting at UVU and is gonna do great. Emily is from Florida and I just met her a few months ago when I moved in..she just started in the law program at BYU and is married to the library haha, but it has been good living wither her.

Christmas Decorating :)

Usually I'm not huge on decorating my apartment all out for christmas..I don't like to spend money on decorations and usually I am able to go home for a week or so for Christmas break so it just seems a little pointless to me. This year I'm feeling a little different though, maybe because I am only going home for a few days...but I got some fun Christmas decorations and me and my roomy Chelsey decided to make our apartment very festive..It turned out great and I love it!

Me

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

-Virginia Satir

Virginia Satir is one of my fave marriage and family therapists! I'm studying her theory and contributions to the marriage and family field in one of my classes and came across this quote of hers and really liked it.

Free Jazz tickets anyone??

So thanks to Uncle Boyd and Matt at Mckesson (the pharmacy's drug rep), I scored some free tickets to the Jazz game this weekend..I took my friend Brittany and then our friend Riley had some free tickets so we had a few others join us as well..We went up a little bit before and hit up Gateway and did some dinner at california pizza kitchen. Such a fun night! I love jazz games, they are always a blast to watch and we had some really nice tickets (way to go mckesson)!

Snoop Dog

A few weeks ago a girl that lives next door to us threw a huge "Katy Perry" party....She likes to throw big themed events and is a huge Katy Perry fan, so she meshed the two..I was a little big sketchy about going because I just thought it would probably be dumb haha, I like Katy Perry but I'm not like so huge a fan as to throw a party themed around her. So since all of the girls were dressing up like Katy Perry, me and Chelsey wanted to be different so we dressed up like Snoop Dog who sings the song California girls with Katy Perry...Lets just say Gen-X is the best store to go to if you want some gangsta clothes, I especially like the blue flames on my pocket..It was actually a really fun party and there was a ton of people that showed..I would have to say that we actually got quite a bit of attention over the snoop dog look versus the katy perry look that most of the girls were rocking..nice :)

Sri Sri Radha Krishna Temple

One of the statue set ups that they pray to

This is the chant that they say quite a few times every time they meet

This is the statue of their leader Krishna..they bow before this guy and pray to him

This is their temple..looks like a castle to me, and there is a bunch of llamas and animals on the outside that they take care of.

So I'm in a cultural class right now and as an assignment we had to have a multicultural immersion experience. Basically just be around people of a different culture (could be religion, racial, or even social class) and write a paper about the experience. I chose to visit the Sri Sri Radha Krishna temple which is in Spanish Fork. It was quite the experience. When you first get there, they have you take off your shoes to walk around the temple (I'm sorry, but this was disgusting to me because the temple was not the cleanest place in the world). They talked to us for a little bit and answered questions that we had about their religion and then just let us loose to look around their temple and anything we wanted. It was very interesting to see the kinds of things that they believed in. Definitely different from what I am used to. They had a million of the statue things like the pictures that I showed above and they chant and pray to these statues regularly....I felt bad thinking this, but it was all somewhat creepy to me. It was overall a good experience, I enjoyed learning about how other people view religion and spirituality and to see how other people worship. I would definitely say I'm in kinda LDS bubble because I don't really branch out and see what else is out there..Because I know that its true :) However, I think it's good to know what else is out there and be educated on other religions and cultures..especially because as a counselor I will be meeting with people who have different views than myself and it is important to validate what they feel instead of disregard it because I don't believe the same. This class has really helped me to see the importance of knowing, understanding, and validating what other people are feeling especially those who are different than myself.

Life in Provo

Went to sushi night with some friends last night...this was a big step for me..I HATE fish and all sea-food pretty much. I've never tried sushi, but pretty much swore that I never would because it looks so disgusting and the thought of raw fish makes me want to vomit..For some reason though, I was feeling a little crazy last night. How can I say I hate something if I've never tried it right?? I was actually very surprised that I didn't mind it, in fact there were a few kinds that I even liked. I'm not saying I would crave sushi, but if people wanted to go eat there, I don't think I'd be mad.
Been spending alot of my time hanging out at this place and doing homework :)...school is taking over my life, which is pretty much what I expected so its ok. The hard thing is that I have some weekend classes...so 6 Saturdays out of the semester I am in class from 8-5, 8 hours of class is rough going. The Saturdays when I'm not in class, I have to work all day because I have to take the time off for class, so basically I don't have a free weekend for a long, long time...I'm not sure when I'll be able to go home next, but hopefully atleast a day for Thanksgiving! I am just trying to be greatful that I am getting a good education and working at a good job, who needs a life right??

look who landed a job here? i just started working this week at Macey's Pharmacy, which is like 2 blocks from my apartment, so nice! I am working part time and they are so flexible with my school schedule, which is AWESOME :) I really like my boss he is a really nice guy and somewhat reminds me of Uncle Boyd..especially when he brought to work cucumbers and tomatoes from his garden haha..It will take me a while to get used to their system and the way that their pharmacy does things, but I feel confident that I will have it down in no time! Such a relief to get a job, I was getting nervous I wouldn't find something. Count my blessings :)

Provo in General: When I first moved here, I was wondering why I had. I moved up a week before school started so I could start job searching..so pretty much for a week, I didn't have a whole lot going on while everyone else was working and in school..Made me feel like a big loser even though I knew I was going to be start doing the same thing very soon..Now That I have started school and got a job I'm wishing I had more of that free time haha...Funny that your never satisfied with what you have, right? Now that I'm more settled in and started doing things, I feel alot better about Provo. It has been a lot of fun here, I have very cute and fun roommates. Our apartment is really cute and has a very homelike feeling to it. My ward is HUGE, biggest ward I've been in by far, but I should have figured that with being BYU's 202 ward haha..but I have met quite a few people in the ward already and it everyone is really nice and fun. School is taking up alot of time, but I wouldn't change that because I love it..Its such a good feeling when every class you feel so good that you are making the right decision. Being a therapist requires alot of time building empathy for other people. I am taught in every class how to love and understand ALL people. This is so good for everyone, not just therapists. How can I hate a field that teaches me so much love and understanding? I LOVE it! My job is really nice as I talked about above and I'm so grateful that I found such a good atmosphere to work in. So for right now, life is good and I am doing really well!

Tan Fan Makes a Return

We didn't want Tanner to think that just because he is graduated and no longer playing sports that we weren't his biggest fans anymore. So when he came home late one night from playing with friends, he found this in his bed.

Just for Gentry hahaha ok and everyone else too

Ok, so it has been a while since my last post I know..but I just don't know what to post these days because it seems like my life has been work lately. So here it is, a long boring post about work! If you hate this, blame Gentry because she wanted to know what my doings were lately haha...Since I have moved home I have been living in the pharmacy, atleast it feels that way. I have moved I have been working a TON. My hours kinda vary,but i've been putting in about 50 hours a week...sometimes more, sometimes less. I can't complain though, because the paychecks have been nice and I definitely need the money! Working at a pharmacy in a small town is sometimes a little crazy though haha...I just love running into everyone and their dogs from Emery county (catch the sarcasm?)..but it really is a great job. I like what I do and I like who I work with, seeing as how most of my co-workers are my family :) Other than work, my summer in emery county has been pretty good! I have just been hanging with my family alot, which is so nice...I never get to see them when I'm down at school so it's nice to spend a lot of time with them. (for the most part haha) Not a ton of people are around this summer, I think there was more last summer..but I still have enough friends around to hang out with and that has been fun too! I've also just been getting stuff ready for school next fall..I decided I will be living in Provo and commuting a few nights a week to Draper for my classes. I know its a little bit of a drive, but I don't have to do it every day or anything..I have quite a few friends in the Provo slash Orem area, so I think I will just have more fun living there..Hopefully I will be able to find a good job at a pharmacy in that area too! I'm definitely getting excited to move, it's going to be completely different from what I'm used to because I've been down south forever, but I think it'll be a good change!

Dancing with the Stars Application

Since I have moved home, I have quickly realized that to survive in this household, I must take a liking to Dancing with the stars. I used to like the show, like 3 seasons ago.....not it has just gotten old for me, I'm a little sick of it. But the family is huge into it, so every monday I am forced to watch it. Well me and Brandon decided that we honestly have the right moves and style so its time to just go for it. So here is our video we are going to send in as part of our application to dancing with the stars. Maybe you will see us on there next season, who knows!

SUU Graduation 2010

So this last weekend was my graduation from SUU. I graduated with a Bachelor of Science Degree in Psychology. Can I just say....Wahoo!!!!! I am so excited. It feels so good to have accomplished this. It is definitely crazy to be at this point in my life though, it makes me feel very old although I know I am not. It was such a nice weekend though..All of my family was able to make it down for the ceremonies and it meant so much to me. I have such an awesome family, I love them! The next stage of my life is a little scary, but also very exciting at the same time. Who knows what will come my way? haha...But hopefully I'll figure it out soon :)

Just Some Pics from Events of Late

Who You've Always Been--Sheri Dew/Katherine Nelson

So a girl that lives next door to me made this video and I think its just amazing so I wanted to share it. She took all the photos and edited it with music and words from an inspiring talk from Sheri Dew. It has such a good, strong message about knowing who we are. I am so grateful to know who I am and what my purpose is. Sometimes in this world it is hard to remember that and things can be distracting. Sometimes it is easy to get down on ourselves for our weaknesses or to be discouraged because of trials. But knowing that we have a purpose and a mission in life, that we have a heavenly father who loves us and understands, makes it possible for us to overcome anything that we face. I actually had the opportunity yesterday to listen to Sheri Dew speak in person! She came to SUU and gave a fireside for the Relief Society sisters. It was incredible! I love Sheri Dew and have read several of her books. What an amazing sister! She has such a way of reaching out to the sisters and letting us know of our divine potential and influence. She spoke to us about how important we are as sisters and daughters of God. How important we are as woman. She talked to us about the importance of knowing who we are and what we are supposed to do. I know that as a daughter of God I can have an amazing influence on the people around me and I want to constantly strive to be aware of that fact. Anyways, sorry for this long post because the main focus of this post is the video. I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do! Remember to pause my playlist at the bottom of the screen :)

Oh the places the Tan Fan has been....

Soo...lots of pics and I can't figure out how to write next to each one. So hopefully you'll get the gist for each one. This last weekend so was sooo much fun! I absolutely love spending time with my family and watching my little brother play basketball. He is such a talented athlete and fun to watch. This weekend was state basketball and his team ended up taking 4th, which is pretty good, I am very proud of him! After Thursday's win, me and Lace were catching the emery fever and tanner pride haha, so we decided that night to go all out for their next game, since they were playing to see who would go to the championship game. So we made some way sweeet t-shirts, too bad we didn't take pics of us in them that was dumb! But all of the siblings had a t-shirt with tanner's number and something else on it, such as i'm a tan fan, tan is the man, we love tan, "poke", "roni", etc..we also decided to make what we like to call the "Tan Fan". we blew up a 8 by 10 of tanner's head and taped it to a ruler. Everytime Tan did something good in the game we would wave the Tan fan at him, it was HILarious! and a big hit I might add. We had alot of fun Thursday with the Tan fan and took him all around Provo..we definitely weirded some cars out by sticking it out the window while passing...So here is some of the different places the Tan fan has been..

First, with me (co-creator)

Taking a nap with Edward (aka..dad)

chilling with Maddie (aka #1 fan, that was her shirt we made, she also had fun coloring on it)

Grandma loves tan fan

Even Tan Fan has to do the vacuuming

Tan Fan just chilling by the fish tank

Tan Fan loves the hot tub (never mind me in the swim suit please eew)

Need a Tan Fan for lunch?? Just pack it in your sack. easy access

Tan Fan is exhausted and needs a nap

What the? Tan Fan in the microwave

Tan Fan loves Hampton Inn

and Last Tan Fan with Lace (co-creator)

New Computer!

Basically I have the best parents ever! I got a little early birthday slash graduation present because my old computer crashed..so they helped me to buy a new macbook pro! I just got it today and so I've been playing around with it alot. I still don't know how to use it really ha, it's a little difficult for me, but i'm sure i will get the hang of it in no time. It will be so nice to take to class and keep notes on and such, i'm super excited about it . It has a pretty fun phone booth on it, so im sure i'll get alot of use out of that haha..As you can see from the pic of me!

Back in Cedar

A great psychologist (sorry thats what my major is, so this is what I hear everyday :)) Abraham Maslow said once, "When I am anxious it is because I am living in the future. When I am depressed it is because I am living in the past.The ability to be in the present moment is a major component of mental wellness." I think I have been feeling both the depression and the anxiety lately in my life. Mostly towards the anxiety side. I worry about my future all the time. There are so many unanswered questions I have now. Such as marriage, career, grad school, possibly a mission, even down to where am I going to live this summer? I drive myself crazy thinking about these things, but I need to worry more about what is going on right now in my life so that I can get that complete "mental wellness" I'm so worried about what the next step after Cedar is that I'm not letting myself enjoy the time I have here in Cedar. So for my goal of 2010 and this new (and also last) semester at SUU is to enjoy the time I have here. I'm going to try and not worry about things that are beyond my control at this point.


PS Sorry no pictures in the last two posts, I will try and put up some from over the christmas break soon..but for now i just felt like posting how I've been feeling lately! School just started today and I'm very excited to graduate in May!